....... just a bit mellow really;

only as i couldn't think of a better name. the weekend has been pluh, a bit meh, slightly whatevs. just a bit melancholy really. nothin too exciting went down, lots of killing time, being bored, wondering what i could have been doing, all in all, a waste of a long weekend. most people are studying, or busy, or im just not cool enough to hang out, but that's ok, i got to spend lots of time doing... SWEET LITTLE, which is a harsh contrast to the recent months of my life. ive discovered that either way, ridiculously busy, or depressingly bored, i am never happy nor satisfied. being heaps busy kills me. i get tired and frustrated with tired and then overall just tired and frustrated, i have a great time, then regret it on monday when i have to get up and go. whereas a boring nothing weekend like the one just gone, is good as i dont get tired, im just chillaxing, but then, i am not a good solo kind of person, as i get all deep and broody and then cant snap out of it. so its much of a muchness and ive come to the conclusion, that i just cant win.... its a bit unlucky really.