its kind of about nothing... i was bored...

im not sure what this blog is about, i just wanted to write something. there are a few ways i could go. im thinking about how God is sustaining me through a hard busy and stressful time, im thinking about how God has blessed me with an amazing lady, im thinking about how God has given me a tremendous crew of friends who i love to death, im thinking about how or why people would want to live a life without God, im thinking about what im going to have for lunch, im thinking about what i should choose to do next year, im thinking about a lot of other things as well. when, i have half an hour to fill, this is what i do. i kind of like it. i like to try and think about what God would have me do. then i more often than not get saddened, due to my inherently sinful and selfish perspective, i struggle to see through what i want to see, and see what God intends. but then i realise that there is nothing i can do about my sinfulness effectively, i repent of it, realise JC has taken the penalty for it, and try my utmost both prayerfully and practically to live a life void of sin, but as romans reminds us, for all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. and another verse im reminded of, he who thinks he is without sin, deceives himself. not sure where its from.
my mind just jumped to somewhere else and im feeling in awe of my friends and their godliness. three friends in particular, who will remain nameless. all three have gone through ridiculousy hard times, and all three have put others and Gods plan before themselves, and made my jaw drop. their willingness to trust in Gods sovereignty over their lives, rather than become resentful or doubtful, and their attempts to be prayerful and christlike in all situations and act as they think God would have them act, has been such an encouragement to me. i can see how the spirit is working in them to further God's kingdom, and that down right blows my mind. its easy to say like, God is everywhere, and Gods plan, and bla bla bla, but like, its actually true. its actually happening right now, in and through and around us. AMAZING.
i do wonder how people can deny it. i do wonder, how people can get up, work 5 days a week, have a drunken weekend, and then work again, then drunk again, and just keep doing it. i do wonder what they feel they are acheiving. i wonder what kind of ignorance they must have, and how they must decide to ignore the futility of their lives every single day. to wake up, and say, i know that this serves no purpose to anyone, but i dont care, and im going to keep going even though i know everything i do is meaningless, and im just a product of random evolution, effectively a mistake, a product of some primordial ooze, an anomalie within the universe that is alone, and has no purpose, no role, no end goal to speak of. i think, to have faith in something so dismal, takes a stronger man than it does to have trust in God. God just makes sense. Gods fingerprint is on the design of creation, from the enormity of the galaxies, to the complexity of the human mind. no fragile weak human mind coud have created our world, i mean, we cant even understand it let alone come up with it. to deny God, seems ludicrous, and i feel sad for those who do.



wow.... that was random and unexpected.
chow mein to all.